(Nate is a Christian Missionary. This is a brief excerpt from his monthly news letter)
FATHER , I TR U ST YOU
It was Eastern Orthodox Christmas morning, January 7th, and I was as ready as I could have been to do something I wish I never had to do: leave Robby, Holly, and David. That’s right. It was Christmas, Robby, Holly and David went home, and the Capital Hill riots happened the night before. It was a pretty crazy day.
Those of you who have not been updated by Robby and Holly may be wondering, how in the world did this happen? It may not be a surprise to you that living in a foreign country is hard. It’s even harder to do so as a married couple. Now throw in a child, too. Then, to top it off, add Corona virus, being split from your female friends (Holly’s situation), and the all the struggle that comes with being isolated from your family and friends back home. It was hard for them. It was and still is hard for me too.
Still, the night before they left was magical. It almost felt like the good ol’ middle school days that Robby and I so often relish. Robby and I went to a cafe and talked for hours. We talked as long as we wanted – the night was suspended in time. Robby shared his heart with me, and I shared mine with him. Since it was Christmas Eve in Serbia, we topped it off by going to a midnight liturgy with one of our local friends. By the time it came to the next morning, we had said everything that needed to be said. For now. And I watched as the van drove away.
I remember sitting on my bed moments after they left, saying, “This house has never seemed so empty.”
You don’t talk to yourself when you’re tumultuous ocean of many thoughts and alone! That was a tough day. So were feelings I had a conversation with God. In the days to follow. But, over time, I was confused about whether I had made began to realize the many blessings that the right decision to push to stay here came along with this change.
This month has been just about the craziest one in my entire life. Admittedly, I have thought that just about month lately! Still, I think this one takes the cake. I have no idea how I could have made it without your prayers and the knowledge that you are praying for me. Through your prayers and support, I believe that you have helped me to keep becoming the person God wants me to be. You have helped me to grow as a person, trust God, and serve others. Thank you for that. I pray that somehow all of this is a blessing to you, too.